Who Am I?

Oprah's show on Friday was about women who have let themselves go. Apparently to get themselves back they had to keep a journal about who they were. But they could not be about their titles or roles. So no "I am a mom, I am Catholic, I am a lawyer." Obviously you should realize I am not talking about myself there since I am far from a lawyer.

This must have been thought up by people who are not mothers. (Hello, Oprah!) Being a mother defines who I am, good and bad. How can it not? If you are a mother, or a father, and you can tell me that being a parent does not define who you are then I will tell you that you must be half cracked and really, seriously need to reconsider your said role as a parent.

To a lesser degree our other roles define us...the fact that I am Catholic has certainly fucked me up in some indescribable way. The fact that I have a shitty job tells me alot too, did not go to university being the main one.

But beyond my roles and titles, just who am I? Let me enlighten myself, but sadly probably bore youse.

I am moody.
I am a procastinator.
I am disorganized.
I am messy. (Only at home, at work I'm anal about my workspace.)
I am a yeller. (Falls under my role as mum.)
I am all bark and no bite. (Yep, I'll yell until the walls fall down around me, but there is virtually no punishment involved.)
I am terrible at anything math related.

For fecks sakes, have I nothing good about about me? Thinking....

I have threatened people who have hurt my children or their friends. (This is not a good thing, one can get in trouble for telling a 14 year old -even if she is bigger than yourself- that you will choke her herself if she says once more to a child that she will choke and kill him.)
I am shy.
I am quiet.
However, once I know someone well, I don't shutup.
I am selfish in certain areas of life.(Just ask my poor fella, it's a wonder he wants to share a bed with me.)
I am generally fairly positive. (I know, you'd never guess it by reading this blog.)
I am obsessive.
I am a reader.
I am a contradiction.

Surely, there must be a few positive things about me, but I am much too tired to go on. I have been up for an hour and I need a nap.