Emma, during a rant.

I know I have questions to answer still. And I know I have questions to still send out. I will do it soon, after the hell that will be tomorrow evening perhaps. And do you want to know some more things that piss me off? Of course you do.

Boys. 11 year old boys. Particularly ones named Liam who were vacuumed out of my girly parts. Boys who wear home their school shoes, and then go play at a soaking wet park in said school shoes, even though they have two other pairs of runners sitting in the closet, and then come home with sandy, wet shoes really piss me off. And then they don't even say sorry? That really pisses me off. And then when you say go get ready for soccer? And they come down in one black sock and one white, and then you say go put on matching socks, and they come down in one grey and one white and then when you finally lose it because seriously? how hard is it too match a pair of socks, that really pisses me off. I mean come on, I know he has dyslexia and I know it affects colours but honestly, grey and white? Please.

I know that any number of you could mention how grammatically incorrect that paragraph is, but please don't. It's been a shitey day. And I don't really care anyway.

Grown men piss me off too. People who threaten me piss me off. People who put in letters of complaint for being treated unfairly when they haven't even been turned down for a fucking house REALLY, REALLY piss me off. People who break their oath of confidentiality to tell that person? They are on my personal hit list.

I am so sick of where I live. I am so sick of the bullshit that is involved in living here and sitting on the board. It would be a long story if I where to tell you all it, and you'd fall asleep at your desks with boredom, but needless to say I have had enough and tonight I told the president that I am tired of always being manipulated and I am stepping off the board. I don't know what they will do, I chair the membership committee as well as do all the secretarial shit stuff. They may get some eejit to run. If I go through with it, I plan on announcing it at the general meeting tomorrow night and this is what I think I will say:

"I have been on this board for over 2 years. Being a board member is extremely difficult. I don't think a single one of you sitting here who has not been on the board has any idea of what board members go through. I know that before I joined I had no idea what Irene, or Dave, or Laurie, or, Kathy, or Daniele, or anyone else, had to deal with. I, personally, am tired of having disagreements with people, I am tired off all the manipulation that goes on in this c.o-o.p. I am extremely frustrated by the actions of former members of this c.o-o.p, who insist on acting as though they are still living here and sitting on the board. Therefore, effectively immediately, I resign. I am not willing to sacrifice my family, and my own well being, for this c.o-o.p."

Ah, I feel better just writing that. I said it aloud, added and took away, and that's what I ended up with. Will I have the nerve to say it? Probably not.

I'm such a wimp.

*Edited to add: God, I made a lot of spelling mistakes in here and I can't find one of them now, but I know it's floating around. One more thing that pisses me off: the fact that I am gaining, not losing, weight. This is becoming a big, fat issue. Today, my neighbour was telling her 2 year old to say hi to me. Instead, she pointed at me and said "baby." Her mum tried to cover it up by saying "No, her baby's at home." But I just laughed and said "No baby, just fat." Then I went home and would have cried but my friend had come over to bitch about her SIL who did not show up to her girls' birthday party. Sigh. The baby's gone 8 months old, I can hardly use her as an excuse for my chubby tummy. The fact that I am gaining what William is losing is really times 20 pissing me off.