Sorry...

I realize I threw a whole lot of stuff out there on fb and on here and elsewhere and then left you hanging. I need to update what is going on and I just can't do it here. I know that if William came across this blog, which he hasn't read in forever and I assume he believes I no longer use it, he would be pretty upset with that last post. He has never been a fan of me putting our issues on display. So I do have a lot to say, and I find I am spending my days talking to out loud to myself trying to work my own issues out. Just to let you know quickly, we talked. And we talked. And we talked some more. Things right now are okay. When I am with him, things are good. When he is at work though... I wonder and I question and I am a little lost. I question what will happen. I am 95% sure nothing will happen when he is in Australia, but if you had asked me the day before I found out I would have said I was it wasn't even a question. I had complete and total faith in him. Not in her, never in her, but in him? Never, ever would it have entered my head that he would do anything. Now that I know that the thought was in his head I will wonder. Those 10 days that he is gone are going to be the worst 10 days of my life.

So...I'll send those of you who want to know a message through fb or email and let you know where the story is going to be.