The Sound of Silence

They're gone. Friday was, quite possibly, the worst day of my life thus far. I hated watching them walk away, with Saoirse looking at me as though she was thinking "Why are you not coming with us?" She looked so sweet at the airport, in her jeans and jean jacket and her brand new pink runners. She had her Goofy stuffy and was throwing him on the ground and picking him up over and over. Some wee girl was smiling at her so Saoirse kept doing it. When the girl and her family left she ran after them and cried when I picked her up and walked away.

William called me when they got to Vancouver and said that she was a bit grumpy as she had to sit on his lap the whole time. I wondered what she would do for 15 hours on the way to Sydney. She had to sit on his lap on the way to Hawaii, but on the way to Australia she had 2 seats to herself so was able to sleep. Somewhere between Sydney and Melbourne Quantas lost her stroller. A brand new one at that. We complain about Air Canada to no end, but at least they managed to keep track of her stroller, which was brought right to the plane doors by William. How do you lose something that is supposed to be right there?

They arrived safely and Saoirse seems to be doing great. She loves all the kids there and was even following William's step dad around. This is unheard of, as here she keeps her distance from most adults.

So now I'm doing a countdown, which is very hard as I don't have a return date. I hope it ends up being much shorter than 3 months. Once he gets back we are filing the papers for permanent residency. Hopefully, all will go well after that.

I'm looking at the positives to try and keep myself from losing it...I will actually be able to have a clean livingroom. I can sleep in. There is no baby kicking me during the night. (I actually sort of miss that, I liked knowing she was right there.) I will have time to sit and make some cards or do some scrapping. (Will I? Probably not, but the time will certainly be there.) There's probably a few other positives, I just haven't come across them yet!